Sincere declaration: Dear God, what I am writing is just was argument's
sake. This has got nothing to do with my wavering faith and double
standards. Please don't kick my ass.
Ankita wrote:..if he doesn't, then why is it that when you don't do what you know is right, things go against you?
They do? I refuse to believe. Take a simple case of lying. Have you been caught every time? If yes, wow, being you must suck
In my childhood, I remember I used to sneak 25 or 50 paise from my Mum's purse and use it to buy chocolates- Rajmalai, to be more specific. (My boldest 'robbery'- 2 rupees!) Nobody found out about this. Only a few years ago when I told my mom, I remember the surprise evident on her face.
Ankita wrote: When all your options seem to be closed, you get this thin ray of hope out of the blue... When you think no one cares, suddenly this really old friend ends up calling... When you fall down or get stuck bad, your cell shows 'Mummy calling'... Too much for a co-incidence, right? Happens to all of us... Goes to show someone up there really keeps an eye on us...
N most importantly, when u close your eyes and honestly pray, why do you get a new strength that makes u feel u can tackle just any problem?
That's God... He's not some bloke sitting upstairs... He's within all of us!!
Doesn't happen every time, does it? And just because it doesn't, that's why when it happens, its called coincidence.
The reason why we believe is because we want to. We are inherently insecure and want a guardian angel. Nothing wrong with that though, it helps us be confident.
I must confess this though, the last time I felt there does exist a bloke up there is when I couldn't get admission anywhere for BMM. Ankita, two of your mentioned thinks happened- old friend called up+thin ray outta the blue. I remember me being all teary eyed when an old school friend called me up after ages. He didn't talk anything about himself but all he did was told me about a college very near to my place that offered my course and a sure-shot admission. I never knew about this college and this guy never knew I wanted to do BMM. Even he didn't want to do that but just had this info. All he did was told me about it and hung up.
Next day, he came at my place, took me there, helped me in procuring a delayed admission form and dropped me back home- all selflessly. Its because of this guy that I didn't have to take a drop.
That was when my faith was reinstated in the divine.